My move is just over 2 months away! Time is absolutely FLYING. I officially resigned from my current job, and that came with some mixed emotions. I'm very sad to be leaving the only teaching staff I've ever known and children that I absolutely love. It's a school where I have strong support and it's where I'm comfortable. Comfort - something I'm learning to let go of, and realizing I was never promised it in the first place.
I am experiencing God in ways that I couldn't have imagined, and I can't wait learn even more about His character in the upcoming months and years! I have never had such pure, deep-rooted joy as I do right now. I'm typically a pretty happy person, but I'm talking about joy that is completely disconnected from my emotions and circumstances. Everything in my life right now is uncertain. I just quit my job, I'm moving to a country where I don't speak the language or understand the culture, I'm responsible for a house that may or may not sell before I move to the other side of the world, and I'm leaving a city, community of believers, friends, and family that I adore. I'm a planner...I like to have everything in order. I don't like chaos; I like structure. Normally I would be going crazy because my life is complete chaos and will continue to be so for the foreseeable future, but it's ok! Don't get me wrong, I do have days when the uncertainty makes me a little crazy and my "need" for control and order takes over briefly, but on the whole it's joy that occupies my heart. It's not a result of my own will or efforts...it can only be because of the Holy Spirit. God is faithful in all circumstances - chaos and order alike. Joy comes from obedience to Him...closeness to Him...resolve to follow Him...love for Him.
By this my Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit and so prove to be my disciples. As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in his love. These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full. -John 15:8-11
